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thanks everybody

[Crew38]

Your conditioning wasted there's . You worked harder and way more dedicated. They only thing that counts is winning.

[dfwtp]

grinding away. looks like one more big one to go. big step up this time, so will have to be tighter then before

added back in some tprop to help

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finally back to normal. water normalizing, bodyfat coming down, tightening a little at a time. gonna be a tough 4 weeeks but will all be worth it.

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unbelievable surge in nrg
not sure where it came from

cardio has been 60 min per day

17 days

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test is coming out

film of h20 for some reason.
myb im just fat
f'n with my mind that is all I know
stress is high
need to ignore the noise for sure

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.;...............

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dbl kalpa wv
test out
h20 coming off
little tighter each day

grinding one more week
should be the toughest show I have ever done with the most competition

trying to ignore any distractions and noise and stay focused on what I can control

cannot control who shows up and how good they will be on game day

hopefully I will come alive on stage and surprise alot of people

it will be nice to shut the mouths of some of the shit talkers in my area who try and tear me down

winning should be good for the soul....and bad for their ego

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final weight
211.8
very successful
all in all one hell of a year

dont want to get into placings as I was warned by 2 promoters in my area not to travel to compete where I did

lots of complaints about collusion and lots of political posturing about where you are from
people who have won multiple shows this year in other places were there and placing 4th

I brought a whole crew of people so I was given a "consolation" placing out of respect, but for the most part from what I saw, what I heard, and what the reactions were, it wasnt really close.
I believed the overall was mine, but this was not my time

Sometimes things happen for a reason, and they are often exactly what needs to happen at that moment

in the moment they dont make any sense, but I know 6 months from now when the bar is heavy and bending from the weight, this scenario will play in my mind and since I cannot accept it, I will strive on and push through because this feeling will remain fresh at that time

no downloaded pix yet but will be looking for them

[dfwtp]

time to grow

awesome year bigger fuller to come next time
220+ or parish